Mark Wahlberg: 'I Am A Bit Self-Conscious'
10/7/2010 12:14pm EDT
Actor Mark Wahlberg worries about taking on "vulnerable" roles - because he's convinced his childhood friends will think less of him for showing his sensitive side.
The Boogie Nights star grew up in a rough area of Boston, Massachusetts, and turned to drugs and crime as a teen before a stint in jail prompted him to turn his life around. However, Wahlberg admits he still tries to impress friends from his old neighborhood with 'tough guy' roles.
He tells Empire magazine, "I am a bit self-conscious. I grew up in a tough neighborhood and it's cool if you're playing a tough guy, but playing the vulnerable guy, the p**sy, the guy who doesn't win and who doesn't get the girl, that is always in the back of my mind as a potential concern. Too often I have wanted approval from my peers back home and respect from guys in general, but as an actor you've got to be able to do different things... Having turned my life around, I was a 'p**sy' and I was a 'fag'. Excuse the language, but that's just the way it was. It was f**ked up."
However, Wahlberg admits he has learned to cut out friends who were holding him back from Hollywood success. He adds, "There are a lot (of friends) that are trying to turn their lives around. But ultimately I couldn't continue to give my friends jobs if they weren't focused on doing the right thing... You get to know who your real friends are."